You Are Worth More Than That

Hello ladies!!!!🌞🌞🌞

So most of you “know me” or at least have been following me for a few years now! I hope you’ve enjoyed the journey. I’ve shared bits and pieces of my life both past and present. But regardless I still have the girls that see me and all they see are “perfect images”. They see the hair all done up & the make up with the put together outfit and this boss babe doing her thing. Although I appreciate how highly you all think of me (at least what you all tell me 😘) this isn’t always how it’s been. My life has been full of brokenness. So girly...yes the one with brokenness too. I want you to know I see you.

My life is honestly the best it’s ever been. I’m in love with a man who treats me well and I’ve got 2️⃣3️⃣1️⃣ days til my 👰🏼‍♀️🤵🏻‍♂️! My business is the best it’s ever been and I feel more and more at home in Indiana. BUT......that doesn’t mean I don’t remember the days that got me here to this point in my life. There were days where I felt completely broken where I would literally stand in front of the mirror just sobbing to the point where my body would shake but not a sound would come out, because quite frankly I didn’t even have it in me. I wished the earthquake in side me could shatter the mirror so that I could see the broken pieces of glass. I wanted so desperately to be able to hold my broken pieces so that maybe I could figure out a way to put then back together again. So girl I see your brokenness. I feel your brokenness. This next part is something I wrote almost 4 years ago:

“There came a point where it was as if I were standing completely still while the world around me continued on yet at the same time I felt as though I was going a million directions at once and yet stood still. I was numb to the world around me as my world wasnt so much a world any more because it had been ripped into the tiniest pieces that I tried so desperately to imagine were confetti I got to throw around as I screamed madness into the world that was spinning so fast just like my mind in a million directions which way was it going? This way or that? I couldn't tell because my roadmap had signs that said one thing was this when it really was that. As I tried to piece together how it was supposed to be I couldn't because my mind was in a daze like I was hungover but yet I never even had a drink. Maybe it was the blow to my heart which has clogged my vision as if shards of my broken dreams cut me and had impaired my vision to see even the slightest bit of who I am. But really who am I other than lost, broken, and shattered.”

Maybe you relate to that paragraph. I hope that if you relate to it is because you’re no longer in that place either. I hope that place is just a memory for you. Maybe it’s not. Maybe that is your day to day. Oh baby girl my heart breaks alongside yours. I know your pain. But girl never ever give up. You are more. So much more than every negative word, thought, or action that could ever be brought upon you. Just trust me you’re more than that. 💕💕💕

Love Always,
Ashley

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